Tag: guilt

“SHAME”

This has been a shameful week to be a white American. I don’t know about the rest of you but along with anger, “shame” has been the most prominent emotion I’ve felt. I learned how naive I was to think that the one thing the world could collectively agree upon was the condemnation of Nazis (and the KKK). Despite everything…

“FEAR”

What up, Friday people? You may or may not have noticed that I did not blog last week. I’ll be honest, there were just not enough hours in the day and I didn’t plan well enough ahead. I’d like to believe I had a good excuse because I was finishing up pre-production for a new short film (that we shot…

“EXHAUSTED”

OMG it’s Friday (again) already! It is my 10th week in a row doing this blog and it’s the first time that it has felt like work. It was a really intense week on this job (long hours that were both mentally and physically challenging) and all I want to do today is chill. That being said I woke up…

“HEAVY”

Running late today because I had a (kind of intense) job all week (yay for jobs!). To be honest I have been too busy this week to really think about anything other than the job I was on but this post will scratch the surface of something that has managed to come up despite the lack of brain space. Do…

“BEFORE/AFTER”

This week started off really rough. BEFORE // 3.16.17 Sometimes I think I’m not meant to be alive. I’m not a functioning member of society. Sometimes I have trouble functioning. I can’t force my lazy self to do things I don’t want, to do, anything. I wrote this poem in the midst of a “small” mental breakdown. I was getting…

“OVERWHELMED”

Oh my goodness, it’s Friday again. I’m going to start this one off with something positive (because sometimes I need a reminder). This week I had the opportunity to meet with multiple people to gather their wisdom about making their first features and now my plan has legitimately started to form. Like, I know the first steps that I need…

“BRIEF RELIEF”

Happy Friday! Usually Fridays don’t feel any different for me than any other day (because, you know, freelance…) but today feels like a bonafide Friday! This week has been particularly overwhelming. I had some (very) low paid freelance work that is very tedious and takes more time than it is really worth and I just kept getting in my head…

“GUILTY”

Hello! Thanks for coming! I’m going to break my usual format and start with the poem this time… GUILTY // 2.28.17 I can’t figure out how to make it work. How to work and have work not feel like what it is. Spoiled maybe. Privileged, definitely. Broke as fuck, anyway. Fact: Life is too short but continuing without “almighty paper”…